Awww...

Thank you all for the love, support, encouragement, flowers, & reminders!

"...I’m pressed, but not crushed, persecuted not abandoned
Struck down but not destroyed,
I am blessed beyond the curse,
For his promise will endure,
That His joy’s gonna be my strength..."
[From Israel & New Breed's 'Trading My Sorrows']

God...

I hurt. I'm frustrated. I'm confused. I'm lost. I'm angry. I'm sad. I'm alone. I'm weak. I'm scared.

Four Years Later

Well,... today is the 4 year mark since "the accident". It's crazy... It doesn't seem like its been that long, but yet sooo much has changed since then. I can remember the last time I saw him. May 9, 2004. It was at my graduation from Carolina. He was so happy and so proud. He had a grin from ear to ear. Everybody was so happy and I felt great... Now there's nothing left but memories, shoulda's, coulda's, & woulda's. I can't help but to think how things would be today if he were here. Sometimes I wish I could just spend one more day with him. So I can catch him up and show him all that I've done, all that has happened, and tell him how much I really loved and cared about him. But I tear up everytime I think about it, cause I know it'll never happen... all because on July 5th, 2004 he was merely at the wrong place at the wrong time.