I Told You So...

What you ask?... Let's take it from the beginning. On December 31st, 2007 at around 7pm, I was an emotional wreck; I was worried about things I couldn't control, was upset at being let down,... you name it, I felt it that night! I received a couple of calls that night from people who were concerned about me spending my new years alone and feeling the way I was. One in particular, the caller shall remain nameless for privacy purposes (lol, you know who you are), really helped my mood. They were willing to give up their new years plans to come be with me despite my sh*tty mood. The longer I was on the phone, the better I started to feel, until they finally convinced me not to stay home alone. Despite what I was feeling I went ahead and went out. I arrived at my destination not knowing what to expect at about 10:30pm. At around 11:15pm something happened. I just all of a sudden felt different. Something had changed, but I wasn't sure what it was. But all that I was feeling, all that I was worrying and stressing over, and all that that was currently weighing me down, all lifted and seemed to fade away. I didn't know what to think about what happened. For some reason, my mind became clear and free of nonsense clutter and so went all my worry, stress, and unhappiness. I ended up bringing in the new year laughing, playing Wii (side note: I'm definitely investing in one of these!), and having a ton of fun with some family and friends. That night (or I guess that would be day) when I got back home I slept more peaceful than I had in a long while. Throughout that day, my spirits were still high, despite the fact I was about to leave it all and return back here to VA to start this semester of rotations. On the way back home, I had a chance to spend some time talking to God and thanking him for this new year and all he has done for me thus far despite of myself and the fact that I haven't always done what I should. The more I talked to him, the better I felt and the more clarity I gained of my current life situations and that the best way to deal with them, was to not... but to let it go and let him do what he does. When I got back and unpacked, I started to check emails, read blogs, etc etc. on my computer. I also ended up putting up an away msg on AIM that read "2008 is definitely going to be an interesting year!" ... And boy has it!!!

My year so far...
Jan 1- Had to scramble to find a last minute housing option for the month of January [as to not be forced to live on the street] since my program decided to change things up a bit!... So basically, day 1 of the year and I'm now HOMELESS!

Jan 2- Had to wake up early and go to work in 12 degree weather to start my Jan rotation... all in the name of Internal Medicine. But by the time I got home, I was so tired and cold, that I had my first Sickle Cell pain crisis of the new year (yes, already!) and was about 30 minutes and 2 Lortabs away from going back to the hospital... this time in the name of Emergency Medicine!

Jan 3- Had to wake up early again (5:30am) in ridiculously cold weather to attend morning rounds like a good student. By 4:00pm I was exhausted and ready to get home to take a nap. Finally some rest and relief!.... NOT!!! Because on the way home some stupid heffa in a red Mazda decided it was a good day to RAM/CRASH/BANG into the back of my new Maxima! Not only do I now need an oil change... I could use a new bumper! Thanks!

Jan 4- I'm really kinda scared to find out honestly.

But despite it all... I'm still able to let go of what I cant control and to get it done with what I can. All I can say is... I told you so!